Hey everyone, I've notice a lot of people going on about RL problems and telling other people theres a problem to deal with, but never state what it is, it never dawned on me for ages.

In January my mum died.
this is the first time I have written or even spoke about it, I've mentioned it in passing, never delving into it that much you know, why bother if its gonna hurt, that kind ofthing, I suppose the attitude I had wasn't the best thing to have at the time, I still haven't cried over her, horrible as it sounds I just haven;t cried over her. I came downstairs on the morning of the 9th, my dad woke me up and we waited for the ambulance, but she was dead lying on the couch.

I was in a slump for ages, not doing anything at all, I never did anything before, but I never noticed it before, I got out of the slump around JUNE. it took that long to get back onto a shedule. I was planning on leaving in june, I would have all my loans paid and I would have a full driving liscence, but it hasn't worked out that way, I have payed off my loans, but there is no liscense, I may head over to england and do an intesive driving course.

I still have to save up though, I will take ages but its cool, I'm only on Jobseekers, I can't work anywhere I have to do heavy lifting or anything that will strain my back until I get the all clear from the hospital in Dublin, so that restricts my search LOL.

I'm essentially making this post to air a few thinsg out, yes I am 22 lving at home, its all to do with something medical I don't want to get into. I miss my mum and I feel this will get my thoughts out more coherently. I'm here listening to Blink 182: stay together for the Kids, and its the reason I made this post, they have very thought provoking music. I'm sure a dead mother wasn't the focus of the song but hey, its what worked for me.

Finally, In Real Life I am making a live-action movie. Me and a few friends, I have it half written and cameras and props. what I am asking you is simply this. Is it too little too late to dedicate this to my mum?

Thanks for reading, sorry if you thought it was a topical post about flash LOL